sooooo...
big changes to come. and. i. cannot. wait.
i can also not wait to get out of this apartment! and into a bigger, shared place! not this this apartment is bad, it's very "cozy," and it is. despite my sarcasm, it is cozy. but as we know, cozy does mean small.
*sidenote: heidi montag's mom just called her a brilliant, articulate woman. just thought that'd amuse you.
i'm so totally excited to start a life with someone. especially someone i've wanted to be with for so very long.
had a birthday this past weekend.. it was the best. birthday. ever. hands down. portland is a lovely place, with a lovely person and his family and beautiful flowers. i'm not much on the weather. it was a lovely sight to behold stepping out of ILM and into the sun and sea breeze. i just really love heat. i don't know why; always have. yknow how in the summertime when your car has been sitting in a parking lot all day and you get in and the heat is overwhelming? yeah, i love that. thought, i won't lie, i do only love it for about two minutes, then i gotta roll down the windows and let it escape before i die.
in completely unrelated news: i keep  buying these sheer tops and not wearing them, i just love them. i purchased a vintage acid green one yesterday and I WILL rock that shit. oh yes, i will. it's color and it's vintage and it's sheer and it's wonderful. how could i not? i think it's an easier vow to make to wear these transparent tops than it is to wear color. so i'll start there. good starting point. i think.
love is crazy shit, too. in case you didn't know. how another human being can matter so much in your life is insane. whether it be your family, your lover, your spouse, your best friend. whatever. it's crazy shit. selfishness is completely overrated, though, and love is the perfect antidote.
what it that pigpen says?

i know you've heard it. hear it again. duh.

Today, I again made a decision to wear more color. Will I? No. I will not. Do I know this? Obviously. Trite, yes. Still, this is the only thing that I'm like this with. If a person doesn't want to do something, they won't do it. Fact, yes? Yes. So, saying you're going to do something you don't really want to do is somewhat ineffective, unless you're being paid to do it. Right? Right.
This is why I don't make New Year's resolutions. Yet, here I am saying I'm gonna wear more color. Yeah, right. 
This is not something Rev. Run would permit; my apologies.
If only everything were so black and white. And beige.